Is it bad to feel perfectly fine about not having a proper job or occupation in general, just so you can get up late in the morning and read books in your bed? It just feels so good, like something I would like to do every day for the rest of my life! I love waking up with something to read.
So yeah, I really like having a lot of time in the morning. Waking up and getting ready is really tedious for me. And I like it, as long as I actually do have the time for it.
Usually, I spend three or four hours on getting up. Most of it is consumed by lazieness (which basically means a lot of reading, followed by a lot of being really slow, which leads to the shower in which I spend a lot of time, while not really figuring out a good breakfast so I just end up making lunch right away, but since I'm not very cheffy it takes some time, so by the time I'm done eating it's usually afternoon already).
Be glad I'm not reading this aloud for you, because
Never mind, got interrupted by a trespassing parent and I'm not in the mood for anything anymore. Hate.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Wow, really?!
I don't believe that anyone's reading this blogg, but I might as well write something, if only for my own comfort.
It's been a couple of different and for some aspects even healthy weeks, since I even thought of updating my blogg.
I got a job at a big restaurant, where I got to take care of the dishes. A scullion, I believe it's called. And it was the hardest work I've done for like ever. It was so stressful and noicy and there were all these scents from old food and detergents. In adition to all this, everything was blazing hot!
Anyways, that's what I've been doing for a little more than a week, but then of course, I got sick. Again. Sure, I guess the stress didn't really help, and I suppose I inhaled quite a lot of stuff that didn't belong to me, so perhaps it's no wonder.
What this mean are two things. One, I don't get to earn any more money for a while. And two, I sleep on good times again. But of course, I did that when I worked too. Had to get up at five in the morning, so I guess it was even better then. Oh well.
Now, I bid you a very good night ^^
Whoever that reads this <_<
It's been a couple of different and for some aspects even healthy weeks, since I even thought of updating my blogg.
I got a job at a big restaurant, where I got to take care of the dishes. A scullion, I believe it's called. And it was the hardest work I've done for like ever. It was so stressful and noicy and there were all these scents from old food and detergents. In adition to all this, everything was blazing hot!
Anyways, that's what I've been doing for a little more than a week, but then of course, I got sick. Again. Sure, I guess the stress didn't really help, and I suppose I inhaled quite a lot of stuff that didn't belong to me, so perhaps it's no wonder.
What this mean are two things. One, I don't get to earn any more money for a while. And two, I sleep on good times again. But of course, I did that when I worked too. Had to get up at five in the morning, so I guess it was even better then. Oh well.
Now, I bid you a very good night ^^
Whoever that reads this <_<
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Scored 100, needed 80, got 25...
General life update:
Got my sleep in order, finally, and I even got to work next monday!
But yeah, my giant sleep disorderish thing has been really bad, lately, so I didn't sleep Sunday-Monday in order to reboot myself, sort of. Kinda worked too, I've actually been able to sleep and wake up at proper times. Lovely.
Somethings that however doesn't seem to work for me is the examination tests for the class in programming that I'm taking. Every time there is a question with several possible answers (and thus more than one potential point) I automaticly, no matter the score, get 0 points! What this means is that I cannot get a higher success-percentge than 25! I need 80 to pass!!! And I get 100%, but something doesn't work properly! ARGH!
It's a course in programming, so one could think that they would have programmed the site well enough for it to work.
As for now... stuff. I must do it. And hand it in. So bye.
Monday, January 16, 2012
Restless
I've come to a decision. I need a change.
Tonight is dark, indeed. I cannot sleep. Must not.
Anxiety.
I have never before been awake more than 24 without severe fysical pain or external stimuli such as energy drinks, sugar or coffe. But I guess I had to do it some day. If I am correct, I can look forwatd to a day of headache, nausea, general anxiety, doubts and weariness. I don't think I'll be able to eat a whole lot.
Also, today happens to be that day where I start college. Not that there is anywhere to attend or anything, since we're supposed to study at home. I just don't think I'll be in a very good shape to do anything at all today.
Apart from studies, I'm also expected to spend the evening with some friends. Nice, but I doubt I'll be able to contribute much at all.
My family is starting to wake up, so I'd better get myself a good, long schower before anyone notices I haven't been to bed at all.
Tonight is dark, indeed. I cannot sleep. Must not.
Anxiety.
I have never before been awake more than 24 without severe fysical pain or external stimuli such as energy drinks, sugar or coffe. But I guess I had to do it some day. If I am correct, I can look forwatd to a day of headache, nausea, general anxiety, doubts and weariness. I don't think I'll be able to eat a whole lot.
Also, today happens to be that day where I start college. Not that there is anywhere to attend or anything, since we're supposed to study at home. I just don't think I'll be in a very good shape to do anything at all today.
Apart from studies, I'm also expected to spend the evening with some friends. Nice, but I doubt I'll be able to contribute much at all.
My family is starting to wake up, so I'd better get myself a good, long schower before anyone notices I haven't been to bed at all.
Time! Y U NOT WORK?
Half past six. Accelerating downhill.
I want to read a book and not having to think about anything at all. I want to do that and then sleep, when I get tired. Not for the rest of my life, just for tonight. The thing is that I have to get up in the morning now, since I do actually attend a class. Well, I don't really, since it's all done from your computer at home.
It does, however, give me permission to enter the otherwise closed activities in the student associations.
I'm really to tired to write anything particularly smart, or even interesting or funny. I just want my sleep patterns to be normal. It's not working out very well at all! I hate my life for this.
I need to get up in just a few hours. In fact, I was planning to be up at 0700, but that's in one and a half hour, so that's not gonna happen. Around twelve is more likely. Fuck me. Or my life, anyways.
I want to read a book and not having to think about anything at all. I want to do that and then sleep, when I get tired. Not for the rest of my life, just for tonight. The thing is that I have to get up in the morning now, since I do actually attend a class. Well, I don't really, since it's all done from your computer at home.
It does, however, give me permission to enter the otherwise closed activities in the student associations.
I'm really to tired to write anything particularly smart, or even interesting or funny. I just want my sleep patterns to be normal. It's not working out very well at all! I hate my life for this.
I need to get up in just a few hours. In fact, I was planning to be up at 0700, but that's in one and a half hour, so that's not gonna happen. Around twelve is more likely. Fuck me. Or my life, anyways.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
I've been busy, that why...
... Actually no. I've not been busy at all. To be fairly honest, everything has been so awfully boring and slow that I haven't really had anything to write about. But yeah, I guess I could write about that...
I have this letter with which I'll get my new VISA card at the post office. Basically, what this means is that I have not brought it home yet, because I'm to LAZY to make the 20 minutes walk there and back! YES!
Oh, and btw, I love games. Of all kinds. At least many. But I can't buy new ones, or even play any, because if I do, I'll not do anything else at all for as long as that game is fun to play! This sucks so much!
On the bright side, then.
I and everyone I know seem to have survived 2012, at least so far.
It appeared that I had forgot about some cake I put in the freezer some time ago. Thus I have cake!
It's finally started to getting cold!
Cooking! I did it!
Oh yeah, and I'm getting good at driving. Cars, that is. Real cars.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
I'm a waste of space
So I've been having this post up for a while, without being able to write anything particularly interesting. It bothers me more than it should, really, since there is hardly even anyone reading this anyway.
I feel alot as if I'm just throwing my life away. That does however not make me unique in any way, what so ever. For what I know, most people tend to think this way. At least every once in a while. I wound't say I do it more than others, either. Thus, I shall be quiet.
Or at least about such boring and tiresome stuff.
I wan't to meet people! New people! In totally new situations!
This is not made as an insult to people I already know, it's just that I somehow seem to believe that maybe new beings with new thoughts might have the solution to whatever riddles I need to solve.
I just wrote "I do not wish to live" with the intent to continue on something else, but then I like... couldn't really come up with something to say, so I stopped at that and... well, I do wish to live.